Home again
January 28th, 2012 § Leave a Comment
Hard times trying to get back into some sort of routine now that I’m back! I feel the pull of the grey and the cold pulling me down, memories of sun and warmth fading…
Arrived home at 2 am Friday morning to two very irate cats who didn’t let me get the few hours of sleep I needed before having to go to work, ugh. I was fine and coasting until about lunch time on Friday when I just hit a wall. Bless Nancy’s dear heart for planning the day out for me, and curse me for a dumbum for giving the kids sugar in the afternoon 
I had such a small suitcase, I couldn’t really bring back much, but I did bring back hand-painted bookmarks for each kid, and then a small sampling of Mexican candy (so their parents may have been cursing me for a dumbum that afternoon, too, hahah!) Was caught up with a few stories of things going on with some of my students and their families (no money, no food, crap-assed parenting where they’re being verbally abused, may be taken away from their families, etc. part of the joys of teaching in this area), and bawled all the way home at the unfairness of it all for those poor little mites. Felt useless, ineffectual. Overtired. Oversensitive. This carried on into the evening, and I went to bed completely out of sorts.
I slept fitfully last night, too — not by choice, of course. Trouble was his thoroughly engaging self and pestered me every 2 hours last night, but at least I went to bed early, and was able to get up and get moving this morning. Chiro for a back-crack and to give Gina some hugs and pressies for looking after my babies while I was gone, my every-2-months(ish) hair appointment to cover my greys (sigh) and freshen up my lovely (sassy, damnit) brown, and then spent a while with my bro & family. Napped a good part of the afternoon, bookended by two affectionate felines, grocery shopped and now am catching up on a show or two before maybe joining a friend for a coffee. And trying not to feel put out by a lack of enthusiasm elsewhere.
Right back into it. Feh. I miss the sun.
